Sabar~

哇～好久没动华语了，我想字体也变得一堆‘屎’，每天不是英文就是马来文，担心久而久之不会怎样用华语了。
哈！第一次在我的部落格用华语来‘涂鸦’，感觉还不错，想写什么就写什么，不用管怎样正确地应用词汇，只要看得明白我要表达什么，就没问题了！

忍？我应该做到了吧～但是我还是认为不够，需要再加倍一点.....
让？我应该还没做到吧～但是我会尽量去学，需要一点时间....
谦？我应该没学会吧～但是我会尽量减少，需要学会怎样多交流一点...
和？我应该已经做到了～但是我会尽量减少它的代价，需要变通一点...



这四个字，哪个比较难做到？


我认为， 忍 ！！
要忍，才有 让，谦，和 ！！
忍，真的很难做到！ :'(

Mad

She's starin' at me
I'm sittin' wonderin' what she's thinkin'
Nobody's talkin' 'cause talkin' just turns into screamin'
And now it?s I'm yellin' over her, she yellin' over me
All that that means is neither of us is listening

And what's even worse?
That we don't even remember why we?re fighting
So both of us are mad for

Nothing, fighting for
Nothin', crying for
Nothing, whoa
But we won?t let it go for

Nothing, no not for
Nothing, this should be
Nothing to a love like what we got

Oh baby, I know sometimes it's gonna rain
But baby, can we make up now?
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
Can't sleep through the pain

Girl, I don't wanna go to bed mad at you
And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me
No, I don't wanna go to bed mad at you
And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me
Oh no no no

And it gets me upset
Girl when you?re constantly accusing
Askin' questions like you already know
We're fighting this war
Baby when both of us are losing
This ain't the way that love is supposed to go

Whoa, what happened to workin' it out?
We've fall into this place
( From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/n/ne,,yo-lyrics/mad-lyrics.html )
Where you ain't backin' down and I ain't backin' down
So what the hell do we do now?
It's all for

Nothing, fighting for
Nothing, crying for
Nothing, whoa
But we won?t let it go for

Nothing, no not for
Nothing, this should be
Nothing to a love like what we got

Oh baby, I know sometimes it's gonna rain
But baby, can we make up now?
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
Can't sleep through the pain

Girl, I don't wanna go to bed mad at you
And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me
No, I don't wanna go to bed mad at you
And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me
Oh no no no

Oh, baby this love ain't gonna be perfect
Perfect, perfect, oh oh
And just how good it's gonna be
We can fuss and we can fight
Long as everything?s all right between us
Before we go to sleep
Baby, we're gonna be happy, oh

Baby, I know sometimes it's gonna rain
But baby, can we make up now?
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
Can't sleep through the pain

Girl, I don't wanna go to bed mad at you
And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me
No, I don't wanna go to bed mad at you
And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me
Oh no no no


 *Ne-yo-- Mad

Angry!

Juz now wake up, suddenly my mind flash out something what she talk with me yesterday, then I think I'm very unstable now. So I choose to write here to cool down myself.

Juz that thinking, it can hurt me so much, really, yesterday I didn't realise it.

"I ask I can't get it, I'm the nearest I can't get it, I'm the most of care to her I can't get it, BUT the people, who can get it by accidentally or purposely. I lost many times. I'm loser. Always let other people get what I want 1st, I can't accept it, it's hurt, really hurt. "

Give an example of my thinking, it ruins my mind.

A: Kit, what happen to u? Why so angry?

Kit: I don't know, really don't know, don't ask me again.

A: Relax, Kit. Share with me slowly.

Kit: Ok,bro. Bro, I juz can't get what I want.

A: What u want, bro?

Kit: A thing I know I impossible can get it, but why she can do it.

A: Oh? Impossible?

Kit: Ya, sensitive. I don't care I can get it or not, the most I care is she need to learn how to behave herself. Hmm,,how to say, I can't think now, very very……

A: Relax, bro…

Kit: Arghhh!!!

A: Try to talk with her.

Kit: Sure, I will talk with her…

End…

This thing repeat and repeat in my mind. Before she know me I don't care how many times I lose it and her past, now after I know her, I should get it 1st. Am I greedy? Haha, maybe~ I try I try…Kit, relax~ok?

Hope can~

Berdosa with me,but if do that with other ppl xberdosa k?

Can't write more~

To be continue……

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Why?

Why I like to eat…?

Why I like to help…?

Why I like to take care…?

Why I like to test…?

Why I like to disturb…?

Why I like to sleep…?

Why I like to say…?

Why I like to make…?

Why I like to enjoy…?

Why I like to sing…?

Why I like to dance…?

Why I like to laugh…?

Why I like to talk…?

Why I like to walk…?

Why…why…why…

The most---why I can't reach it is,

Why I can't make everything perfect…?

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Quiz?

Wow! A bit surprise when my lecturer prepared some quiz to us, maybe just me.

I didn't prepare anything and not ready at all, I forget about it, if I'm not wrong, lecturer got mentioned it before.

4 questions quite easy, but I still got careless mistake. :(

Luckily, I still remember some theory although it is learned before 1 month semester break.

Everyone started study. I'm still finding my study mood.

Everyone stressed. I'm also stressed here, because I can't find anyone, who like me (not like to study at all).

I can't find a mutual thinking or understanding friends here.

Why?

Maybe I'm too quiet.....

*This day is bad mood for Isa, one of my classmate. Wish he can cool down himself.

TIRED Tired tired....

Sleep 2 hours. It's actually not sleep, maybe it call nap. But I took it too long,so let it be sleep.

First time I sleep in noon time. I don't like to sleep in noon. If I sleep in noon, that's mean something wrong to me. For other people, sleep in noon is normal, especially they are active in morning or not enough sleep yesterday night, but not me. I'm very unhappy or sad, I sleep to let my mind cool down if she can't help me.

I'm tired not because of :

- not enough sleep.

- not enough body energy.

- not enough spirit.

I'm tired because of :

-I'm too worry her, but I got some disappointment from her.

-I'm too control her, everything happen to her I want to know, but I don't like myself because if the situation change, I will feel the guy so annoy.

-I'm too concern her, everyday make sure she is healthy and happy, but I can't find my happiness. I know how to give happiness to other people, but I don't know how to make myself happy, really.

*I always lose.

Naruto?

I saw this picture this morning.

Not accidentally is purposely.

She like it, not me.

I saw it from her Twitter, suddenly remind me many things....

I think I still remember she tell me before, she watch it, sometimes she can cry when watch the touching part of the movie series. Oh? that time I laugh at her. An anime can let some people cry, wow, maybe the author add some experiences in the story.

Is it correct?

It's a part of my memory.

p/s: I'm a very forgetful person. Sorry.

Kangar?

9am I reached kangar,a place not so well developed,but still can improve, I think.

Well! I totally out of my mind. Kit impossible will do that.

U know what, I can sit in kangar almost 4 hours without is WITHOUT do anything,u believe or not?

My mood is getting down with the time goes on.

I'm not angry to everyone, I just feel disappointed to me.

KIT! What happen to u?!!! Arghhh!!!!

I'm crazy now!

Totally can say, waste time.

But it happened, can't blame myself anymore. Sad :-(

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Haha…

Morning,good morning,a very good morning,a very2 good morning,a very3 good morning to everyone,who want to listen me.

When I lost myself, I don't know.

When I hate myself, I don't know.

When I love myself, I don't know.

When I like myself, I don't know.

When I bored myself, I don't know.

When I guess myself, I don't know.

When I enjoy myself, I don't know.

When I improve myself, I don't know.

When I change myself, I don't know.

When I behave myself, I don't know.

When I believe myself, I don't know.

When I angry myself, I don't know.

When I find myself, I don't know.

When I see myself, I don't know.

When I know myself, I don't know.

When I agree myself, I don't know.

When I wish myself, I don't know.

When I suspect myself, I don't know.

When I remember myself, I don't know.

When I get myself, I don't know.

When I understand myself, I don't know.

When I fear myself, I don't know.

I juz know one thing! SURVIVE whatever happen to me!

Be tough!

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Life in Uni~ (Part 1)

My friends in other university, life is busy, a campus life. My friends joined some clubs related to their courses. Why I’m so free? Why my course didn’t have any computer research or software club? Am I didn’t know or I didn’t go to find it? Ask senior? How? We are arranged stay in different in villages. How we contact with them? For me, not easy, maybe for others can, because they got join palapes, suksis or any activities organized by the Chinese and Indian groups.

“Go study la!” oh? Study now that’s not me, I’m not a person like to study, I study not for exam, I study I want to learn something new, something that is very useful for my future. My friends in UTM are a good example. They learn a new computer programming, try to improve, modify and invent something new to control a machine or robot.

Today is the 4^th day for this new semester 2, very boring. I ask everyone, try to find someone or some activities to fill my day, but failed. Everyone just call me, “Go to sleep la…since nothing to do!” I so surprise why people here use sleep to fill his or her day. Am I too stubborn, tired also don’t want go to rest? NO! It’s not like! I want make sense of my life. I’m very tired, really, but like enjoy my life. I want to learn new things! Nothing! Disappoint.

*luckily she was here .tnx.

Ucaptama Tahunan Naib Canselor 2012 (Dewan 2020)

A long speech from vice chancellor, quite boring for me, maybe it takes long time to go on.

Before the vice chancellor come, I and my classmate wait almost 2 hours. Is vice chancellor and other lecturers late or we too punctual?

Be patient, maybe the speech arranged start at 10am. But why they arranged us take the 8am bus? Funny!

About the speech, last 10 years achievement and reputation of UNIMAP and how to improve them for the future. I just study and why I need to know all of them. Is it useful or helpful for me? NO! I don’t think it can.

Before end of his speech, still got around 10 more slides, such a long conclusion. Wow! Is it a conclusion? Maybe I’m not a patient person.

Free drinks and foods are supplied. Free air condition let me sleep well there. Enjoy sleep there. 

*Normally, I won't attend any speech or talk. Special case. :P 

Alone in Singapore~ (Episode 2)

Japanese restaurant again!

Ramen restaurant.

 A soda drink, named Blue Coral soda.

Ramen? Actually it sounds from Chinese word. (拉面)

You understand mandarin, then you will understand what kind of food is that.

Ramen restaurant halal? I think no, so for Muslim can't try it, but I'm trying find one. Sorry, baby.

Ramen is a type of noodle like maggi(I hate the most), but the soup make the noodle very delicious. yum~yum~

Designs of the restaurant,

p/s: very expensive, but it is worth.

Home good? Uni best?

Home

1. Eat, drink free.

2. Watch TV anytime.

3. Online speed faster than my university.

4. Drive car go out anytime and everywhere. Go every friend’s gathering from primary, secondary and Form 6 schools.

5. Toilet big and clean.

6. No date at all. He or she from different state of a country. Need some time to meet each other. (*if you have)

7. Many housework need to do. Personal work. Tired.

8. Clothes washing by washing machine. Free.

9. Can cook anytime. Use kitchen anytime you want.

10. Relax. Rest your mind.

My University or College

1. Eat, drink must pay include mineral water.

2. No TV. Watch movies from my laptop.

3. Online speed very slow! Download a document rate around 10KB/s.

4. Rent car. Expensive. Time limit.

5. Hostel’s toilet very small, size almost same with body size. Dirty.

6. Dating anytime and anywhere. (*if you have)

7. No housework, but need to clean hostel or my room once within 2 weeks. Sometime group work.

8. Use washing machine must pay. RM 2 for exactly 72 minutes.

9. No kitchen is provided.

10. Study hard. (I prefer study smart.)

p/s: In uni, you are not under control by your parents. :P

Alone in Singapore~ (Episode 1)

I like this drink !

Mango soda!

When you start drink it, you will feel it like soft or gaseous drink. Nice~

Expensive. I drank it at a Japanese restaurant in Bishan, Singapore.

 After shake,

 Try and enjoy it~

Eat?

Wait...

A mushroom soup with some onion, a salad and a salmon baked rice.

I like baked rice, especially salmon or chicken with some mushroom, yum yum~

Draft timetable for Semester 2 !!

Day	Time	Subject	Place
Monday	8:00-10:00 am	EQT 102/3 (L) Engineering Mathematics II	DKP 1 Automart
	12:00-2:00 pm	EKT 112/4 (M) Group 1 Principles of Measurement and Instrumentation	MKY 6 Kg. Wai
	4:00-6:00 pm	EKT 103/3 (L) Group 2 Electrical Engineering	DKP 2 Automart
	8:00-10:00 pm	EUW 212/2 Group U University English	BKK B1 PPIPT
Tuesday	8:00-10:00 am	EUW 117/2 Group B Japanese language I	BKD 3 Dragon
	2:00-4:00 pm	EQT 102/3 (L) Engineering Mathematics II	DKP 1 Automart
Wednesday	12:00-2:00 pm	EKT 124/3 Group 2 Digital Electronics I	DKR 2 Seberang Ramai
Thursday	12:00-2:00 pm	EKT 112/4 (M) Group 1,2 (maybe) Principles of Measurement and Instrumentation	DKP 2 Automart
Friday	8:00-9:00 am	EKT 112/4 (M) Group 1 Principles of Measurement and Instrumentation	DKR 2 Seberang Ramai
	9:00-10:00 am	EKT 124/3 Group 2 Digital Electronics I	DKR 5 Seberang Ramai
	10:00-11:00am	EKT 103/3 (L) Group 2 Electrical Engineering	DKR 5 Seberang Ramai

7 more days a new semester start! Boring, study life is coming back soon~

Kampung Life~

 This two flowers decorated and put in front of my grandma's house.

 No asphalt road. Rural area. Weak phone signal.

I like eat durian! Like it so much! 14 of durians I eat 6 or 7. :P

She adviced me don't eat too much, later sick. I followed. Thanks.

Durian, very delicious.

Happy Chinese New Year !!! (Part 2)

2^nd,

Wake up 8am. Too noisy can’t sleep back. All my little cousins wake me up. You know what they want? They want borrow my phone play games! I need to queue them play how many games, if not fighting will happen especially boys. Argh! I want sleep! “Kit! Come here! Eat breakfast! “, sound from grandmother in kitchen. “Ok! Ok! I’m coming! “, but my eyes closed slowly. “Roti canai! “. My eyes were shining after heard it. I had a delicious and enjoyable breakfast. Actually, when I heard it, I remember someone, someone that always waked me up by miss call. I remember when I eat roti canai with her, she just surprised when I eat 4 pieces roti canai. I think it is normal for a guy, right? Poker card become the most popular games for members of my whole big family. Gamble with my grandma, I think I can get some pocket money but failed. She had too much experience with poker games, an expert, indeed. Actually we (I, my aunty, and my sister) just want to make her feel happy and try to fill her time. Everyone bored, so play the poker card anytime. I’m not bored because she shared some time with me. Anyway thanks.

Happy Chinese New Year !!! (Part 1)

1^st day,

Went back to my grandma’s house in a small village, which is around 40 to 60km from my house. 1 hour more can reach it. My grandma’s house actually near if compare with my aunties’ house, which are most of them stayed in Johor. First thing I will do when I reach my grandma’s house is find how many biscuit had in her house. I like biscuits, especially homemade biscuits. The taste is different if compare with the packaged biscuits. Maybe the packaged biscuits have too much preservative and change the biscuits’ taste. My stomach was satisfied after filled by all the homemade biscuits. Suddenly, my grandma called me. “Kit! Dinner time! “. Oh! Oh! My stomach was really full. How I eat. But if follow the traditional culture, night before Chinese New Year, the members of a whole big family must gather and eat together. I need to follow and respect it. Eat again. Wow! I felt my stomach want to burst or explode. In one Chinese New Year, how many chicken, pig, and duck were dying? I’m not sure, but I think many. A huge amount! In my whole big family, we need 3 chicken, 1 pig and 2 ducks to fill our needed. My stomach contains 10 percent of ducks’ meat, 40 percent of chicken’s meat, and 50 percent of pork. It is PERFECT!

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Facebook! Facebook! Everyday Facebook! Recently, I saw a post from my senior. “Before exam we need to face book. Not the “Facebook”! “. 2 more exams left. Last 4 exams are not satisfying for me, especially “skills and technology in Communication”. During the exam weeks, many things were happened. It takes some time by saying it one by one. Summarize it! Happy Moment! That’s all I can say. How happy? Don’t ask me, I have no idea about it, but you can try to ask her. I’m just trying to make her feel happy every moment she with me. Because of some financial problem, happiness for her is limited. Hope she can understand. That’s all I can do for her. I don’t like blogging. My English grammar is a big problem for me when I write something long text or essay. Because of that, I not prefer myself go blogging. She like blogging (maybe), all the post I had read is very impressive. Stop it! Too many praise for her no good. She will proud later. I don’t like an arrogant person. She not at that level yet. After I read all her posts, I start to write this long post on my blog. Just try it. Free now. Try to find something to do to fill my day, but still can’t find it. Study, I try it, but I like last minute. I like to burn midnight oil before exam come for next day. That’s challenging, but very tired. My parents always scold me about that. I still act like that. How naughty am I. :)